Sunday, April 28, 2013

Senior Prom

My baby girl is gorgeous no matter what she wears.  This year she went a more simple dress for Prom because she wanted to be able to dance and enjoy the evening more than worrying with a fancy dress. I myself think she still looks absolutely GORGEOUS!

Thursday, April 18, 2013

My baby is graduating!

Well it is getting closer and closer to my beautiful girls graduation.  She got to go to NEW YORK with her chorus a few weeks ago and that was a big thing for both of us, me to let her go and her to get to go. Now she has prom coming up next week and then a Spring concert and her 18th Birthday and then just a few more weeks until she will be wearing that cap and gown and I will be an emotional basket case.  Just look at how absolutely gorgeous she is!

I am so super proud of her and excited for her future.  I am also so very nervous and worried, its weird this mix of emotions.

My Senior! Wow! It seems like yesterday I was having my own little baby doll to play with (what? I was only 19 when I had her, had just turned 19 only 3 days before I had her actually haha) she was such a perfect baby!  So happy and full of love, She didn't meet a stranger and smiled at EVERYONE!  She never cried.  I was worried something was wrong with her because she just never cried.  She was so super easy to care for and was an absolute blessing to my life.  This is why I named her Destiny, because that is what she was to me. She was changing the course of my life and becoming my future all at once. Such a wonderful change in the right direction for me.  Now she has about the same personality where she smiles at people often, and what a gorgeous smile she has too.  She is a bit more opinionated which can be a good and bad thing ha!, I am glad she has learned to have her own voice in life.  She is super smart, and thinks she knows more than most, which is part of being a teenager.  She is facing some choices in life that are very important and feeling the stress from it all, but she is going to do fine. She will live and learn and grow and continue to amaze me!   I am so blessed to be her Mom!

Wednesday, April 17, 2013


Ok, I am getting older. Actually have a birthday coming up, but I still can't believe I am old enough to be affected by arthritis. I also worry about it.

I had trigger finger release surgery several years ago and the Doctor told me that with my family history of rheumatoid arthritis that the fact that I was having to have trigger release surgery so young might be a sign of the gene in me.  He offered me to take medication Celebrex from here on out to help with discomforts caused by debilitating arthritis.  I was too young then and still too young to take a medication like this daily for the rest of my life because it will damage my liver and the pain that I feel is not intolerable at this point.    So I opted to not take the medication.

Today is the first day that I have ever sat and just held my hands and rubbed my hands due to discomfort in the joints.  They ached tremendously. I took advil and the pain subsided several hours later.

I have fear in me because my grandmother was crippled by rheumatoid arthritis, she couldn't move her fingers, both hands were mangled up and she couldn't even hold a glass, spoon, or fork.  I fear this being me one day.  I am trying to get fit, active and keep moving to keep from "locking up".  But the problem is that my pain is real and worsening at such an early age that I am extremely concerned.

I am going to stay positive and keep up with an active lifestyle and be grateful for all the things I am capable of doing and just enjoy life.  Hopefully I will kick old Arthur's butt and he decided he doesn't want to live here! :)

Monday, April 15, 2013

Boston Marathon

I am not like many as I do not aspire to ever run in the Boston Marathon, but I would like to run a marathon some time in my life.  I have to first learn to run a simple 5K without walking or injuring myself.  Those who qualify for the Boston Marathon simply amaze me!  Their will power, strength, courage, and dreams are so big!  Why someone would choose to harm people in or supporting such an amazing event is beyond my realm of thought. I absolutely can not nor will I ever understand the non-sense that is a bomb or attack of any accord.  It is heart wrenching to see the aftermath of such a terrible event.  I sit here and there is little to nothing I can do, but cry.  Why is this happening?

Then, I put myself in these peoples shoes.  I think of my family watching me on my events and encouraging me and taking photos for me and being my rock and support. I think of the what if's.  What if I was out there running that Boston Marathon (which would be nothing short of a miracle) and my family were super duper proud of me finally reaching a life dream (which is what most participates are doing)... and finally making it to the finish line to see/hear/experience such a horrific act of violence and find out that it was mostly the spectators that were affects, my family! Words can not express the feelings I feel when I put myself in those shoes.

I am thankful today that my shoes are not that big and my family is safe and sound.  My heart still hurts for those affected by this year's Boston Marathon.  It truly is a sad day.