Tuesday, November 30, 2010

The dreaded day has come

My son wants to live with his dad.  I am still processing this.  I am terribly sad and heartbroken over this and don't know how I will get through it.  I hope he is just venting and talking and never really does it.  But, I wont change my rules and ways of raising my children to please him, I feel he needs guidance... routine.... structure and to be pushed in the right directions as far as grades and responsibilities. 

He is my baby, I love him beyond words and it hurts my heart so bad that he wants to do this.  I told him he had to finish out this school semester since there are only 3 weeks of school left.  He spoke with his Dad and then I did,  his dad has to get him enrolled in school there, new friends, new school everything.... his dad has to have health insurance on him and his dad has to grow up and be much more responsible himself to be able to care for him full time.  I pray for them both.  I am scared to death! Not for the present so much as for the future.  Who my son will be.  How this change will dramatically change him? My fear has validation, and I hope he will change his mind. 

Guess we will see how it all plays out.  Who  knows it might be fun to have him every other weekend and get to do fun things with him and not have to push so many responsibilities and just enjoy him his weekends with me? But, I doubt that will ever be enough to make my heart happy.  I will miss him terribly and sure hope, I pray, beg and plead with anyone who will listen to make him change his mind.  But, I wont beg and plead with him. I simply say I think he is making a mistake, he is right he is old enough to legally make the decision of who he wants to live with and I am terribly sorry he feels like he would be happier there but I will not stand in his way of what happiness he is trying to find. GOD parenting is so hard! 

I have to get busy at work, I am crying uncontrollably now... children can rip your heart to pieces with never even knowing it, and I now feel sorry for my own parents and my own decisions through out my life.

Please pray for me....better yet.... pray for my son!

Saturday, November 27, 2010

The Beginning - Christmas 2010


Well Here we go again... its that time of the year. Thomas is out busting his tail on putting up around 18,000 lights that will be animated and I worked on some door art, and helped him some.... but I had to do laundry too lol.

I decided spur of the moment to go all out and decorate our door this year, all of the sudden... while we were at walmart just on a whim... I bought all of this crap! lol




But, the finished product does like kinda shnazy :)

Here is some of the start, just to give you the idea of how much work and effort is put into this light show 
 Above are some of the lights for the mega tree (which is still in progress.... maybe it will be up tomorrow and I can post some photos then)
Here you can see one of Thomas' controllers (the sequence box the thing that makes the lights dance to the music).  Also you can see we use our tomato cages to wrap lights on lol it works!


Close up

Close up of of his arches... lots of work went into those

 Candy canes!
Stars!

Tada!  Ok... the house still needs more lights, the mega tree has to be finished and he is still working on the green grass, but it is all coming together :)



See the multi-colored trees by the cars? I put the lights in those trees. (patting myself on the back lol)


And here is the lighting engineer himself... working on the green grass.... he rocks so hard! :)

The lights on Harrison Stree will be up soon, I will post a link to the website once Thomas has it ready to go this year! :)  Merry Christmas!

Monday, November 22, 2010

He loves me



And I am the luckiest girl in the world! !!


8 years


Happy Anniversary to US!!!
 
I have been blessed so much in my life.  One of my treasured gifts is the gift of love and companionship that my man gives me.  He loves me as I am, even though I could stand to lose 40 lbs, even though I whine and complain and even bitch and moan sometimes, he still loves me JUST AS I AM!  I know this because he expresses love to me in so many ways.  Always taking time to take me on date nights, still opening my car door for me, rubbing my feet and anytime I curl up next to him he caresses me and expression affection toward me, he spoils me, if there is something he knows I want or would like he will figure out a way to make it happen and he is pretty freakin' awesome at spoiling me. He makes me breakfast in bed (banana pancakes even!).  He makes me laugh.  He tells me I am beautiful. I can be myself with him, and not worry about him not accepting something I say or do. He  may not always agree with me, but I can be me and that says a ton about him right there. 
 
We have had the best 8 years together. A few rocky patches, what relationship doesn't have that! But, I am proud to say that each rough spot has only brought us closer together and I feel that our relationship has reached a point to stand the test of time and I see us growing old, very old together. 
 
He brightens up my world!  I mean sure there are times I want to ring his neck... as he will want to do to me also I am sure, but that is the men are from mars and women are from venus situations normally, not anything he does in particular lol other than be a man!  I wouldn't change who he is and I Love him just as he is! :)
 
I am very happy to have spent these past years with him and have way too many wonderful moments we share together to ever begin to mention them all here in this little post, and I can't wait to see what our future holds together.
 
I love you, Thomas!
 
 

Thursday, November 18, 2010

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

♪ You think your cooler than me? ♪

The type of cool that is going to see the new Harry Potter movie on opening night at midnight and taking her kids so it can be a fun time with a memory to last forever!...no I am not that cool.

The coolness that is playing all the hot games on all the hot game consoles we own (PS3, XBOX, WII..) instead of watching them collect dust and be ignored.

The cool person who actually reads the books she buy so she may share/discuss it with her friends.  Yeah on this I fail badly!!!!  I have so many unread books with good intensions to read them it is pathetic

I am going to go back in time this weekend though and you don't get much cooler than that!

I am going to see my daddy on Saturday morning, then going to see Warrant, LA Guns, and Firehouse on Saturday night.  That concert and night out is going to literally take me back in time.  I wish I still had some of my eighties clothing (or even better could still fit my fatt ass in them), I could dress the part and tease the hell out of my hair with the blue eyeliner, Sweater dress w/ huge belt and tights with leg warmers... oh I could so rock that look lol.  I am going to party like it is 1989 or some year  like that!   ♪ She's my cherry pie ♪ oh yeah its going to Rock so HArd lol

Then I get the joy of being off two days next week for Thanksgiving (thankfully).

And even better not too long after that will be chillin my cool self out at the beach of Pompano Beach Florida, and on down into the keys.  So yeah I am cool, cool as a cucumber dipped in ranch (not sure where that came from.. but that is just more of my coolness shining through!)

Sunday, November 14, 2010

Photography- Sunsets

Well we are going to be in beautiful Florida Keys in only 21 days and I am going to be witnessing some of the most beautiful sunsets, but have no idea how to capture them with photography because I am new to this sort of thing.

So I ventured out to an area that is normally gorgeous here in Decatur, Al. to try to capture the sunset.  Unfortunetly this evenings sunset was not as spectacular as I have seen lately.... but it will do!

I took the following photos, mostly straight from the camera.... I did use a filter, the original sunset was a golden/hue and the filter made the sunset a pink/purple hue.... but here is my first attempt at photographing a sunset as well as a few others I took while out today.
















Saturday, November 13, 2010

Banana Pancakes

I absolutely love the song Banana Pancakes by Jack Johnson.  The laziness in the song, the beat, the way it makes me feel everything about the song is amazing. I sing it often, play it in the car often and everyone who knows me knows I love this song!

My sweet man, spoils me ROTTEN! I mean so bad I must surely stink of rotteness. 

He takes me on one or two date nights weekly because he is so amazing. He loves me even when I am not that attentive to him. He loves me despite the fact the house is messy.  He loves me when I am in a pissy mood.  He makes me smile when I don't really feel like I want to, and when life is not always going well he lifts my spirits up. 

Yes, this man I speak of is the LOVE OF MY LIFE!    I was awakened to breakfast in bed this morning. Not your ordinary breakfast in bed, even though it is never ordinary for a man to do this for his lady.  My man actually got up and made me banana pancakes!  He made caramel syrup to go on top... and they were simply devine.  He said "since I can't sing" when he woke me up, took me a minute (because I am usually slow lol and the fact that I had just woke up... but finally I realize it was more than just breakfast in bed (even though that is spectacular) it was indeed my banana pancakes... so my start of this morning was wonderful and made way for a marvelously lazy day! :-)

I ate up the delicious pancakes then got up and took some photos and decided I would make a video of some of our pictures from this year with that song in the background.... lol I want to remember this morning always and this is a wonderful way to do that! 

So here is the video.
video
Unfortunetly its the longer version of the song which is not my favorite... just hang on the first two minutes and enjoy the photos... lol the song will pick up!  

I am not good at making videos either... its a bit slow and some photos the effects are messed up lol but I have chores to do and things to get done today before the BAMA game.... and I wanted to share my happiness with the world! :)
I love you Thomas and thank you for making my life special! :)

Friday, November 12, 2010

Smiles

 

My life has its ups and downs but I am happy.  My job isn't going as well as it once was, but I am thankful to have a job and steady income.  My kids are growing too fast but this means I am doing my job and so far so good... I am very proud of them.  My man is sexy as hell... we are going to the beach in 3 weeks and he spoils me rotten!!!  I love him so very much.  My dog is fracking awesome..... he lives to please.  My cat is as sassy as I can be and we are a lot alike, there are times I just want to be left alone and well she is always like that lol.  My home is messy and needs improvements but its lived in, full of memories and love, my laundry is never ending but thankfully we all have more close than we need.... What I am saying is... My life is good!  I am blessed beyond measure and even when I am in a bad mood and life is not going well, I have so many reasons to smile!

Saturday, November 6, 2010

It is getting close


Luckily as the weather is turning colder the days are getting closer to my trip down to florida.
 
Flights are booked, car rental is booked, hotel room is booked for Pompano beach (thanks to Heather and her mother's time share), the hotel room for Key Largo is booked (since we will going down to visit with Brad and Lilly one night), the hotel room for KeyWest is booked (since we will venture further down and enjoy the drive, and scenery as well as the night life and sunset/sunrise  in Key West.
 
I hope to venture into Miami atleast once while we are there it seems to be only 30 minutes from Pompano where we will be staying.
 
The whole trip expense is adding up because I just keep adding more to it, but its really not so bad.
Flight 500 car 170 room one 140 room two 200 total: 1010... so that is really not bad for a whole week in paradise! :)
 
That is of course not counting the expensive camera that I bought just to add to my addiction lol.
 
Luckily all we have left is food/gas/entertainment expense.. so it has all come together.  We have only 29 days left until we arrive at our destination. 
 
WOOHOO! :)

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

ISS

One thing that I will not tolerate is my children mis-behaving in public.  It is one thing to mouth at me every now and then and slack on chores some as all teens do this, but it is not and never will be ok to get called to the principles office for inappropriate behavior and be issued a day of ISS  (IN SCHOOL SUSPENSION) OH MY GOD!
 
Destiny got it once when she was in middle school for chewing gum and I remember coming down her very hard. She didn't even get to go to her CHorus field trip to Six Flags because I felt that her getting ISS (which means she has been warned 2 other times before they issue the ISS) was just ridiculous.  Now it is Desmond's time. This is first time to really get in trouble, but its not that he is in trouble it is what he did.  He wrote on the board of a teacher he dislikes the word PENIS really big before school started.  WHAT? WHAT? HE DID WHAT?  How ridiculous is that?
 
I figure he did it to be funny, so he could say I did that to his friends or something, but its just our right stupid!
 
Soooo my poor boy will be spending a day in ISS tomorrow and go two weeks with no xbox, no psp, no tv, and no outside play time.  YEP TWO WHOLE WEEKS. Plenty of time to think on how crazy it was to do something that silly, two weeks to get himself straightened out however he might need to be able to control himself the next time a thought like that pops in his head. 
 
I worry about some of his influences and I worry about him anyway but never this kind of worry, never worried about him being this ridiculous.  He is a honor student with good grades and normally NEVER gets in trouble at school but now has done this?  yeah.. po Desmond, mommy is ticked.